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"They call me the wild rose, but my name was Eliza Day..." [02 Nov 2006|10:04pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Interesting things that happened today:

1. Found out about Daphne Rosen, one of the only open Jewish porn stars in the industry, who happened to attend Amherst College.

2. Found Nabil Azamy on Facebook.

3. Got my birthday present from Ben...SNACKS!!! Gold Fish, Kit-Kats, Reese's Pieces, Dried fruit, Pepperidge Farm cookies, popcorn...num.

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"I want to be the one in control..." [30 Oct 2006|03:14pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Best surname ever: KNIPPEL.

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[23 Sep 2006|08:06pm]
Dear friends,

Please do not drunk dial me. It's insensitive. It's not funny. It hurts my feelings, especially because I'm going through a tough time right now. When I see people calling me late at night during my this vulnerable time, the last thing I'm expecting them to be is drunk, laughing, saying asinine things, and flirting with a new friend. Please do not put me on the phone with said friend, especially when you know that I don't particularly like this person, whether I have met them or not. You know that I'm jealous and would you really expect me to be in the mood to talk to them? I love you very much; that is why this hurt me. I know it wasn't intentional, but it was certainly done with little judgment, which surprises me incredibly because you are usually a very wise person. You have been there for me thus far and I appreciate that so much.

Please do not complain to me about not inviting you out with me and the person with whom I live the night I return home when you know the only reason I'm home is to visit my dying father and not to socialize. Please don't try to make me feel guilty about not being able to see you for a while because I have a lot of stuff going on in my life right now and can't find the time or the energy to go out of my way to see you or anyone else. It hurts that you would even have the audacity to bring up such matters with me when you full well know that I'm going through a really horrible time, no matter how cavalier I force myself to sound. I love you very much as well, so you can understand why I am so shocked that you would display such a lack of sensitivity. You as well were not trying to hurt me, but I really cannot empathize with your umbrage because there are more important things happening right now.

Normally I would not have expressed these feelings and would have just ignored them for the sake of not rocking the boat, but I can't avoid the bad feelings these two experiences left me with.

My father is dying. He's got stage 4 glioblastoma, which is one of the most deadly and rare brain cancers. I saw him today and it made me want to die inside. He's semi-conscious and can only communicate by squeezing our hands. He can't talk because he's got a tube down his throat. He knows we're there, he can hear us, he just can't tell us what's he's feeling. But I know he's in pain, he's scared, and he knows he's dying. I just know it. That man is not my father. My father wouldn't stand for this. My father wouldn't be so weak and vulnerable and frightened and helpless. He'd be telling a corny joke and an old story. I hate reliving this, I hate writing about it, I hate expressing my feelings. The only reason I am right now is because people need to know how I feel so I won't get to the point of freaking out for some stupid little thing or needing to confront them about my discomfort with their behaviors. I don't want to have to scream out to the world what is going on, I don't want attention or pity, or my business to be out on display. I just don't want to have to deal with trivialities. I want to laugh and enjoy and learn and feel comfort, but I need to time to adjust.

Please treat me delicately. As robust as I may seem most of the time, I'm a little fragile right now. I'm not a cartoon character. I actually have feelings, as much as I attempt to cover them up with humor and ambivalence. I don't even want to post this, but I know I have to. I will be my old self in time, but right now I need a little flexibility.

This was not addressed just to two people, but to everyone who knows me. I am not trying to single you out, I'm not mad anymore, and I know that you will be there for me. But I needed you to know my feelings.

Love,

Robyn
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"Check you baggage at the door!" [12 Sep 2006|12:41am]
[ mood | sick ]

Okay, so first it was Steve Irwin and now even more strangely and unexpectedly...Anna Nicole's son is dead? Why does this make me sick?

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"Hey big woman, you made a fat boy out of me!" [09 Sep 2006|01:06am]
[ mood | flirty ]

So, I have these constant flutters in my stomach.








What is a girl to do?

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"Time and time again we fall into the depths of who we are..." [01 Sep 2006|11:39am]
[ mood | calm ]

I had so much fun yesterday. The school hosted a day trip to Boston and I've never been in a more beautiful, clean city. Washington DC is very much a suburban city in my mind, but Boston was a true city (although nothing will ever be able to compare to to NYC. I could see myself living in Boston someday. We took the duck tour, which I enjoyed immensely because we had a really funny and awesome tour driver. On the tour I met a kid from Lynbrook and another who was born in Great Neck (they're going to AC with me.) After the tour, you had the choice of exploring Quincy Market or going to the aquarium? Guess which one I chose? This girl Alice and I headed to the market and I liked it a lot. There were street performers and hip little shops (as well as a HUGE Urban Outfitters.) I didn't buy anything, but I enjoyed the experience.

The night before last a pair of comedians came to AC to perform each of their acts. The second guy, Jimmy Fallon (not that Jimmy Fallon,) came on and was like, "Who's from Long Island? I'm from Levittown." So I was like, "Woot. East Meadow." So he said, "Oh, you're from East Meadow I'll talk slower." That pissed me off, but he was pretty funny (better than the other guy.)

Last night I did something I have never done before....karaoke!! My friend Deidra and I performed "Rent" from Rent and it was a lot of fun. Later I went up by myself and performed "When You're Good to Mama" from Chicago . I fumbled one of the verses and my notes were a bit dodgy, but it was fun and no one cared. Memories of the talent show vanished away and I was able to enjoy it all. We have a lot of good singers here, btw!

Right now I'm waiting to put in my laundry and then I have errands up the kazoo.

I love college.

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[20 Aug 2006|03:24pm]
[ mood | calm ]

Euerka! a day off. Got a lot of sleep (I needed it,) finally saw Wednesday's episode of Project Runway, and finished watching A Few Good Men, a really good movie that I started last night with Carol's mom.

Said goodbye to everyone yesterday. It was...weird. I enjoyed girlish squealing in the car with Ramya before she got into her house. Spent some time with the Katzs before Zak dropped me off at Rachel's barbeque. I'm probably going to come back here in a month to spend Roshashana with them, which I am looking forward to. Carol gave me a long hug before we left. Then I said goodbye to Zak. I am really going to miss him, but I feel like I'm going to see him a lot anyway. Harvard is relatively close to Amherst. He gave me two long hugs as well. To think that he was one of my first friends here.... The last people I'm going to see are Brian, Carol, and Dennis, the latter of whom I believe is going to accompany us all up to drop Carol off at Marist.

Getting a bit nervous, seeing as it's my last week here and there's still so much to do. Still feeling very unseasy about certain family things. But things will work out the way they are supposed to, all I have to do is have faith. God provides, as Lori usually reminds me.

Received a comforting voicemail earlier that lightened my blank mood. Been kind of mopey these past days, but the fog is slowly lifting. Kind of caught in the milky stage between dread and excitement.

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"I was troubled as a young kid, my tears didn't help." [10 Aug 2006|03:08pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Fill this out. 'Cuz I said so.

1. Name:
2. Age/Birthday:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song:
6. Favorite Band/Rapper/Artist:
7. Favorite Book/Comic Book:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Favorite TV Show:
10. Favorite Video Game/Board Game:
11. Do we know each other outside of Livejournal?
12. Would you give me a kidney?
13. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
14. If you could change anything about your current life, would you?
15. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

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Just got off the phone with Zak and life is good. Ha!

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"Hey!!! Get up, get out, we're pumping up the party now!" [02 Aug 2006|02:13pm]
[ mood | hot ]

You Are a Mermaid

You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are.
While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need.
Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational.
You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else.
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"Pretty little bird sat on my window..." [20 Jul 2006|02:08pm]
[ mood | calm ]

Respond to this post and I will give you the three words that I think MOST accurately describe you.

The cost? You have to return the favor by posting this in your own journal.

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"One way or another, I'm gonna find you, I'm gonna get you, get you, get you, get you..." [19 Jul 2006|07:29pm]
[ mood | amused ]

There is an alligator named Fluffy missing in our house.


This is not a good thing.

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"You and me know what to do, so come on down..." [19 Jul 2006|06:45pm]
[ mood | creative ]

Look, it's me! She's even wearing chandelier earrings and a Jewish star necklace!

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"School's out for summer! School's out for-ever!" [14 Jul 2006|01:16pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Donald Rumsfeld briefed the President this morning. He told Bush that 3 Brazilian soldiers were killed in Iraq. To everyone's amazement, all of the color ran from Bush's face, and then he collapsed onto his desk, head in hands, visibly shaken, almost whimpering.
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Finally, he composed himself and asked Rumsfeld, "Just exactly how many is a brazillion?"




Stolen from Mel, btw.

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"Crashing in, into my little world..." [13 Jul 2006|08:12pm]
[ mood | calm ]

Stolen from Mel:

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, (even if we don't speak often) please post a comment with a COMPLETELY MADE UP AND FICTIONAL memory of you and me. It can be anything you want - good or bad - BUT IT HAS TO BE FAKE. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people DON'T ACTUALLY remember about you.

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"Sweet temptation..." [13 Jul 2006|03:08pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

OMG COMPLETE YAYNESS! *Dances around and claps excitedly*

I just got an this email:


Dear Robyn,

I am writing to let you know that an excerpt from an essay that you wrote for admission to Amherst has been selected to be used, with your permission, as raw material for an Orientation presentation called Voices of the Class (if used, the essay will be made anonymous). We were planning to mail your essay back to you with a more detailed explanation and a permission slip, but I wanted to make sure that it is ok with you to mail your essay to your home. It will be addressed to you, but we are aware that some parents may be opening college-related mail in their children's absence. Please just let me know if it is ok with you to receive the letter and a copy of the essay.

Thank you,

Assistant to the Dean of Students

Amherst College

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"Words are very unecessary, they can only do harm..." [12 Jul 2006|10:56pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

Le back = agony.

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"Would you carry me to the end?" [25 Apr 2006|11:20pm]
[ mood | tired ]

You scored as Albus Dumbledore. Strong and powerful you admirably defend your world and your charges against those who would seek to harm them. However sometimes you can fail to do what you must because you care too much to cause suffering.

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Hermione Granger

85%

Albus Dumbledore

85%

Ginny Weasley

75%

Draco Malfoy

60%

Remus Lupin

60%

Ron Weasley

55%

Sirius Black

55%

Harry Potter

45%

Lord Voldemort

45%

Severus Snape

45%

Your Harry Potter Alter Ego Is...?
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"I got the right temperature for shelter you from the storm" [24 Apr 2006|04:02pm]
[ mood | calm ]

1: How long has your 'Books to Read' list gotten?

I don't even know. There are so many books I want to read that I haven't been able to list them all. I think somewhere in the 300s. The thing is, I haven't been reading many books this year, kind of taking a long break.

2: What movies do you think are going to win awards next Oscar night?

Hmmm...I think "All the King's Men" would be a good bet, or even "The Da Vinci Code" if it turns out to be any good. Maybe even "Little Miss Sunshine", "The Science of Sleep," or "Marie Antoinette" will be big during awards season as well.

3: What's your favorite movie EVAH?

You expect me to even KNOW that? There are way to many! For the moment, though, I will have to say "Kill Bill: Volume One", but that will probably change.

4: Are you *ever* going to watch Batman Begins?! (Remember the deal we made!)

Umm, I don't remember the exact deal. I suppose I will watch it one day if there is nothing else to watch. LoL. Remind me of the deal again?

5: Did you realize that Ron Weasley looks scarily like Ben Cole in your icon?

Yeah I know ;)

~~~

Instructions:

1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
2. I will respond by asking you five questions of a very intimate and creepily personal nature. Or not so creepy/personal.
3. You WILL update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

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"You live and you burn.." [23 Apr 2006|04:55pm]
[ mood | giggly ]

Carol's weiner dog just gave me my first french kiss. Ugh.

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"Crawling into bed with meeeee..." [20 Apr 2006|04:33pm]
[ mood | excited ]

Amherst College 2010

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